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Still running after all these years

Posted by Dips on December 5, 2008

Now THIS is one amazing story!

Still running after all these years
by Stephanie Simon,
The Wall Street Journal

Last month, my dad celebrated the 30th anniversary of his running streak.
In other words, he has run every day for 10,987 consecutive days. The last time he took a pass — he was feeling a bit sore after a marathon — was Oct. 30, 1978.
Obsessive doesn’t begin to describe it.

 
When he travels overseas, my dad, who is 66, plans layovers so he can get in a couple miles around the concourse, lest he miss a day to the time-zone shift. During blizzards, he wraps his feet in plastic bags, pulls galoshes over his sneakers and screws in cleats for traction. Then he waits for a snowplow to pass his front door, so he can follow in the freshly cleared path.

 
My father, Dr. Harvey B. Simon, practices internal medicine in Boston and teaches at Harvard Medical School. Rationally, he knows that running 10 miles a day, every day, for three decades is not great for his ever-more-creaky body. He’d never advise his patients to do it. In fact, he’s written several health and fitness books stressing the virtue of moderation in exercise. And yet …

 
He’s run with broken toes and the flu and a nasty infected heel and near-crippling back spasms. He goes out before dawn in every kind of weather; he’s become such a fixture in the neighborhood that a couple times when a freak thunderstorm has rolled in, strangers have driven out to find him. They didn’t know his name. They just knew he’d be out there, plodding away, and figured he might appreciate a ride home.

 
My dad isn’t alone in this nutty obsession. The U.S. Running Streak Association lists 31 members who have been running daily for 30 years or more. The reigning champ is a running coach out of California by the name of Mark Covert. He hasn’t missed a day since he was 17. He’s now 57.

 
Every streaker has a story of inspired persistence — or, viewed another way, lunacy. One tells of holding his catheter aloft as he hobbled out after surgery. Another ran on a cruise ship — during a tropical storm.

 
Ronald Kmiec, a concert pianist in Carlisle, Mass., jogged for four days through severe chest pains, until his wife dragged him to the hospital. Turned out he’d had a heart attack. He was so determined to keep the streak alive, he asked the nurse to take him to a treadmill. She nixed that idea, and his streak ended one day short of 32 years. (Undaunted, Kmiec got right back on the road and completed his 35th consecutive Boston Marathon five months later.)

 
Why do they do this? All kinds of reasons. Some streakers say they commune with God during their daily runs. Others think through knotty problems at work. The run structures the day; gives a sense of order to a hectic life.
As streakers grow older, their accomplishment also represents a triumph over aging. You don’t give in to aches and pains; you conquer them. You don’t wallow in anxiety; you lace up your sneakers. You feel, if not invincible, at least indomitable, and it’s not hard to see why; if you’re still doing at 66 the same thing you did at 36, you must be doing all right.

 
My dad started running for health reasons after my mom ordered him to lose weight. He has a family history of heart disease, and he soon found that regular exercise kept his cholesterol and blood pressure under control. I’m sure that’s one motivation for the streak.

 
But the main reason, truly, is that he loves getting out there in the first rays of morning, letting his mind drift, with nothing to do but take the next step. He started the streak, he says, because he got tired of spending every cold, dark morning debating with himself about whether to go out. “I figured, why waste time debating? I’d just go out every day,” he says. “So I did.”

 
When people ask why he doesn’t take just one day off, he shrugs and says, “I like to run.” Asked how he’s kept at it so long, he responds: “Left, right, left, right.”

 
His stride, never all that fluent, has broken down over the last 100,000 miles to the point that he now has what the family politely refers to as a “distinctive gait.” His hip hurts. He’s slow. And still … left, right, left, right.
When he hit 25 years, my dad talked about pulling a “Cal Ripken Jr.,” after the Baltimore Orioles infielder who benched himself one day when he was perfectly healthy, putting an end to an incredible streak of playing in 2,632 consecutive games. Mr. Ripken had wanted to end the streak on his own terms, not wait for injury to force him out. My father said that sounded good. But I knew in my heart he’d never do it.
The streak is too much a part of him.

 
I worry about that sometimes. He’s proud of his streak, and I think his running longevity — the fact that he’s prevailed against injury, weather and all the rest — has strengthened his spirit. He’s a born optimist, but the streak has made him even more confident, even more resilient.

 
What will happen when it ends?
On one level, I know that’s a ridiculous question. The streak does not define my dad. He still practices and teaches medicine; he still writes and edits. He and my mom take art history courses, study music, volunteer, travel.
But still, I worry.

 
In running — in streaking, in particular — my dad has found an outlet to express personality traits that might otherwise stay submerged. He’s a humble and reserved man, but his streak is such a goofy accomplishment that he’s given himself license to celebrate it.

 
For his 10-year anniversary, he threw himself a 10K race — a “ten-athon.” He carried the invitations on his runs, because he wanted to hand them out to all the friends he knew only by first name — fellow joggers who would fall in with him for a few blocks or a few miles every week. My dad made some good friends this way; there is a true camaraderie on the streets at 5 a.m.

 
When I was 8 or 9, I started running with him, too — after he’d put in 10 or 12 miles on his own. It was my best chance to spend time with him. When I flagged, he’d keep me going by recounting the latest Red Sox game in dramatic, play-by-play detail. I’m quite sure he made most of it up, but I was always riveted.

 
Running with me let my father indulge his screwball sense of humor. One year, we ran in a road race just before Thanksgiving, and though it wasn’t supposed to be a costumed affair, my dad talked me into dressing like a chef, with a giant tin-foil cleaver. He put on a turkey costume and as per his instructions, I spent the entire 5-mile route a few steps behind him, waving the cleaver and shouting: “Come back here, you turkey!”

 
I haven’t run with him for years, but he recently sent me a ratty T-shirt he found in my childhood room, from a road race we ran in 1983. I often wear it when I work out, and I think back with a smile on all those runs with dad.
The U.S. Running Streak Association requires members to run at least one continuous mile a day to remain on the active list. (It’s all based on the honor system, but as founder John J. Strumsky Jr. asks, “What would be the point of lying?”) The association also keeps an honor roll of retired streaks. As I glanced over it, the fourth-place entry caught my eye. Lawrence Sundberg, a retired schoolteacher from Farmington, Conn., had clocked a streak that lasted exactly 30 years — from New Year’s Day 1977 through New Year’s Eve 2006. It looked to me like he had pulled a Cal Ripken, and when I called, he said that was it exactly.

 
“With something like this, either it’s going to end you, or you’re going to end it,” he said.
Sundberg said he spent six months mentally preparing for the end, and when the appointed day came, he was ready — though he did startle awake at 11 p.m. and briefly contemplate keeping the streak alive on a moonlit run.
In the two years since, Mr. Sundberg says he has missed just four or five runs. “I still go out at 5:30 a.m. most days,” he said. “But I don’t have to.”
He’s adjusted so well that I consider urging my dad to talk with him.
But then … my dad likes to run. He’s happy out on the sidewalk at dawn. Left, right. Left, right.

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4 December 2005 to 7 December 2008

Posted by Dips on October 27, 2008

Bang! I hear the gunshot as hundreds of people cheer. Its 530am and I’m 200 meters off the start point of the seemingly the longest run of my life. The Standard Chartered Marathon 2005 – the first ever attempt to make a dream a reality. I whizz past many, many people I feel invincible. Maybe it’s because I’m so self assured that people will be waiting for me at the end point or maybe I have trained hard for it. Only one of them is true though. And it’s not the latter. I know I spent many months on it – 6 months of running everyday twice a week. But truth be told, it is really not enough. All that matters is the grit of ending the pain – through the last 12km.

 

I run past the 10km mark – 1 hour and 10 mins is a good timing to keep. It seems like my many runs along the long; never ending Boon Lay Way’s drudgery is helping me keep up with the pace of the run. There’s so much to see along the way but the long running distance just blinds me from the scenic beauty of the run – one thing I have learnt to appreciate is the sheer beauty of the places that are chosen to run at. It’s not about the run – rather it’s how you appreciate what you see around you. If you run for the run, you run for nothing – you drudge yourself all that distance. I drudge myself another 10km easily. The secret experts say is to keep consistent lap timing. And consistent lap timing is exactly what I have. 20km in another one hour and 15 mins. Very good – I almost pat myself on the back and take a call from someone who would never call me again. We talk for a while as I run – seems like I can do it after all. Or so I think. What I do not realize is that I’m only halfway done. The worst part awaits – hell awaits in silence.

 

As I carry on my heart beating in joy of seeing familiar faces that will celebrate with me once I’m done – in two or so more hours. I’ve held on for so long, might as well a little longer and I’ll be done. My mind floats to plan I have for the following weekend. Chocolate buffet. A great way to celebrate my victory over the distance I’ve conquered over the last six months. A celebration of mind over body – a celebration of victory over myself. But it has to wait for the job is not done yet. I run past a hoarding that reads, ‘If you see a wall, find the window in it.’ 28km. still no wall – still going strong. I reach the last championship chip mat at 30km – a resounding beep reassures me that I can do it in my target of 5 hours. It can be done – 10 more km and that’s it. I feel a surge of power within me – of reassurance and of hope that I can do anything I want to. Less than 10 mins away, hell lurks.

 

Suddenly, I stop running. It’s not because I’m weary – I find it impossible to run, or even walk. I do not understand what went wrong. Where did I make a mistake? Is this the wall people talk about? Have I finally hit it at 32km? I gulp down a packet of Powergel. It’s the third one in 4 hours. I drag myself to the nearest water point and gulp down a cup of water to wash down the heinous sweet taste of the sweet poison. This is supposed to fix it soon – I tell myself. Soon I’ll be on the road again and sooner than I think I’ll be with those who wait for me at the end point. None of this happens. The moment I start, the very next second, I stall. My left leg screeches in pain – like a monster gnawing through my flesh with its poison teeth sunk deep inside of me. I stop in an instant. Maybe it’s a temporary setback. Maybe I can walk a little and rest a little and still go on. I try to calm myself down as my heart pounds on like a devil. That someone calls me again to ask how I’m doing. We chat a little but I don’t tell how I am – there’s no place for self pity in me – a stupid notion.

 

I decide to limp till I end this. I am unable to even walk – my watch reads 5 hours and 13 mins. You should be done by now and here you are – weak and helpless. Another 30 mins at most I tell myself – rather I fool myself. 33 km and I am still limping. I see people whizz past me as I limp. I stop from time to time to scream out silent screams of pain as my leg throbs in pain telling me to stop punishing myself for no reason. I do not listen. I press on. When going gets tough, the tough get going. I look down at the medal in my hand. A sentence rings in me, ‘This was last year’s one. Show me what this year’s medal looks like.’ I try real, real hard. Running is out of question I realized quickly enough. I can only walk – I refuse to acknowledge that all I can do at this point is limp. My legs buckle under my weight many times as I walk. I have no choice but to limp. I limp past the 37 km mark. 6 hours and 15 mins. One hour for 3km. Not a bad timing. Maybe I can end this. By then end of the hour. Of course, its only hopeful.

 

The pain grows like a devil’s bite. I eventually stop again. There’s no ending now I tell myself. I have 5km to go and I can’t stop now… not now. I grit my teeth in pain as I get up and move on. The sun hits my face with a fiery blow. I wash my head from keeping it from drying. I realize my limit at this point. It’s not about finishing anymore. It’s about getting to the next hoarding that says a larger number. One km by one km I limp. I cry for myself with clenched teeth. I ask myself why I put myself into this and I get no answer. Yet I refused to give up – 39km. 2 more I tell myself as I crash land on the grass patch. The crowd has thinned out to just a few runners and casual joggers. The bulk where I was to be – the peloton where I expected myself to be was long gone – maybe gone home. I still lie on the grass patch trying to keep my resolve. I get up and collapse again and again. The third time I finally get up on my feet. I limp on – 2 more km and I’m done. It hurts – real, real bad. I want it to end but it end when it ends. Not earlier and not later. Not even if you’re tired or if you tear your hamstring at two places.

 

Three years on, I will try again – this time, I have dedicated a year to it. Since July 2007 I train harder and harder every week. Dedicatedly. Because I do not want history to repeat itself. That year, I had someone waiting for me at the end point – I ran for someone; someone drove me with love. This year, I run for myself, the same person drives me but its anger that drives. And I fear myself.

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Today

Posted by Dips on October 5, 2008

Hmmm I just felt like random rambling, but I rambling this way is more productive.

 

Today I find myself in the past,

Hoping things were there to last.

But as an icy chill runs up my back,

I cry for the day and hit the sack.

 

Today I smile at the little things,

No matter what the day brings,

For it feels like a beautiful day,

That smile is always here to stay.

 

Today I anger at myself again.

Somehow I need to ease the pain.

So I punish myself without the need,

It’s the very vows I do not heed.

 

Today I feel great satisfaction,

I see myself in the right direction.

No matter what the future brings,

Life always straightens out things.

 

Today I feel the fear of life,

Bothers me and cuts like a knife,

I don’t know where I’m headed to,

And I not know what to do.

 

Today I feel strange fascination,

Everything’s a new revelation.

My mind feels like a little kid,

So I do the silly things I always did.

 

Today I feel mighty weary,

My body hurts and eyes teary,

I need to get away from this place,

Give me time and a little space.

 

The past is a vault of history,

And the future locks the mystery,

But today is the present it is said,

So I smile and look ahead. 

 

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The Wall

Posted by Dips on February 26, 2008

 A wall stands steadfast between us dividing the city in two. He’s on the west and me on the east. My city is at a state of emergency because emigrations are rampant away from home – East Berlin. I do not understand why people want to flee. Maybe it’s just me who thinks life is good the way it is unlike the rest of Soviet held Berlin. Or maybe I’m happy that I am someone among the mass of people – Grenzpolizei. 

I take a quick short peek at him perched at the other side on four storey building near the wall. He’s unaware that I lurk him from the roof of a three storey house. We’re both soldiers in our own right. The difference is in the choice – he chooses to be one and I’m chosen to be one. He’s proud to be an un-uniformed one and I’m instilled with pride to be a uniformed one. 

I grow more confident of my position as the night falls. Maybe I can get rid of him once and for all. I’ve personally been overlooking his action for almost a year – he’s been evading the eyes, ears and the alarms and traps of the death strip to smuggle East Berliners to the West side of the city – a mortal crime. It was too much of a hassle to catch him in the act and in my mind the punishment was something I had decided to mete out to him myself. I was unsure whether it was my instinct or intent to kill that driving me to madness. 

I lifted my Kalashnikov and took a steady aim. With my finger resting lightly on the trigger, I try to take a steady aim. It’s unnerving how different it is to aim at a shadow of a person on the live range and a real person less than two hundred meters across. The rejuvenating feeling of killing an unsuspecting person who you don’t even know is way past a feeling you can ever get from hitting a willing target on a range. I steady my hands preparing for the moment of truth pressing lightly on the trigger. It moves a fraction of an inch and stops. Anymore, the hammer will fall speeding the bullet to the target. I line up the scope to his head. One shot must result in one kill. No more.  

I feel a piercing pain in my right arm quickly followed by a sharp zipping sound. I let out a muffled shriek as my gun drops instinctively. I see blood all over the floor rushing out of my arm but I don’t feel a thing for a few moments. The rush of adrenaline seizes and a shocking realization sets in. I feel the sharp sizzle of pain in my hand as it aches like a thousand devils screeching inside my head. I let out a muffled scream as I claw the wall with my bare fingers to assume the pain into myself silently. I’m shot by the very person I was trying to shoot. The suppressor – marvel of mankind; a bane to me. I hear the click of the reload as I curl myself in pain and shock.  

I wait for a few minutes which feel like eons before making any move. I lie on the floor as I remove a small packet of crystalline powder – they told me it was a lifesaver, morphine. A single shot in and nothing out got out. All I could see was my bone and a shiny piece of slug in a bloodbath. The bullet still lodged in can poison my blood. So I was taught to remove the bullet out first before putting the magic powder but I was not ready to do it yet. To choose: pain or poison? I choose poison. I’m not ready to face anymore pain for now. I clench my teeth as I nurse my wound with the magic powder and a white bandage which soon turns red. The bleeding momentarily stops as I slump into sleep. 

I wake with a jolt grabbing my weapon with my right hand. I immediately let it go overwhelmed in pain. I try to peep across the wall again. Deadly silence. I quickly duck half expecting something to zip past me again. Nothing. I look at my watch – half past three. Maybe he’s asleep or maybe he’s gone. The realization that surely he can’t be in the building is nothing more than a little more comforting. I feel a strange numbness in my hand as I look at it; it feels as if it were not there to begin with. Maybe it’s the poison playing its part in my blood. I let it be for now. There are more important matters to settle. 

I take off my helmet wearily. Brush my hand against my nearly hairless head. It feels so much more comfortable with short hair when the helmet sits perfectly on it. But I need it for something else. I need to devise a novel use for it. I scout around the roof searching for a twig or branch or anything that’s strong enough to wear my helmet. I wriggle in excruciating pain towards it and retrieve it back to my post. I put my helmet over the stick and spin the helmet a few rounds. Perfect. The stick is strong. I won’t need it for long. Just for a few seconds; as a distortion, a distraction. Something to help me get away from the god-forsaken roof I’ve been stuck and suffering for the past night. 

I don the helmet over the stick with my back pressed hard again the wall. I let out a short painful yelp as I use my right hand to lift up the helmet tip just above the level of the roof. Still nothing. I push my luck a little further by moving it further to the right slowly. I hear a zip as I quickly pull the stick down. He still lurks right where he is because he knows I’m not done yet. I’m not done yet but soon it’ll be over.  

Him or me? I decide it now. I turn around facing the wall. This time I’ve learnt from my mistake. I place the muzzle on the roof wall and play the same game again. My left index finger presses lightly against the trigger till I feel the silent click the hammer is ready to fall again. My right hand moves my prop to the right slowly as ever to ensure he has the best shot with a blindfold. He makes his move and I make mine. A loud band resounds all over the colony as I feel the bullet zip past through my helmet breaking the twig into two. I hear a light slump followed by a muted thud a hundred or so meters away. It’s over. I feel is no sense of achievement in this, no sense of accomplishment. Just a sense of numbness. I lean against the wall and yet another time, doze off – out of pain and weariness. 

Two good hours must have passed because I can see the first rays of sunlight overhead. I wake up with the feeling of an exhilarating pain. At least now I can look for a way to ease the pain, look for the field medic to dress my wound after removing the slug that has been slowly poisoning me through the night. But for some reason, my mind is not at peace. I can’t explain what I did next but I wanted to do it anyway. Maybe it is just a sense of understanding of the inner war inside you get when you see your enemy’s dead face. You realize the eternal truth – he would have killed you if you wouldn’t want to kill him. 

I slowly walk over to the forbidden side of Berlin. As a member of the Grenzpolizei, I am glad I have some exclusive rights to cross over to the other side for the purposes of ‘inspections’. I take my time to get there. There is no need to rush to the body. It’s not going anywhere soon and there is no danger since I have more Grenzpolizei to oversee my safety against some other erratic gunman. I waddle my way in excruciating pain to get there. I don’t seem feel the urge to cure the pain in comparison to the curiosity of my victim. I finally reach the lifeless body of the un-uniformed soldier and give him a ceremonial salute before confiscating his weapon. I crouch down to turn the body over to reveal the face my nemesis of that night.  

I reel back in horror as see my brother’s face.

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Harvest Time

Posted by Dips on February 12, 2008

I wrote this piece when I was in Sec 2.. Then i dunno where I lost it…. one day I sat and wrote it down again… in a more mature way. I hope…. 

The dejected old widower walks out of his almost ramshackle straw hut. He looks at his few remaining precious belongings – two empty earthen pots, his decade old rusty sickle and his 14 year old daughter. He picks up his sickle on the way out. It’s almost time. 

He walks into the scorching openness of his rice fields. The soft gush of the warm breeze sways the ripe paddy as he touches the crop. They’re the fruits of his labor. He can feel the warm crops on his hard, roughened hand. Hear the soft breaths of the wind as it passes through the crops. Smell the sweet scent it carries from his year long toil.  

He touches his dearest babies for the past year – his acre of paddy. A tear of joy runs down his dry, pale and wrinkled skin. He can taste his joy; the sweet taste of his bitter sacrifices. But tears borne were not always those of joy. Life had fallen hard on him the last harvest season; the hardest times. Times when he lost his near and dear. 

The soft wind blows his mind to a world that he couldn’t have imagined. He sees his wife making roti for lunch on a hot summer’s day. He savors the taste of the dry bread because he knows that his wife would go hungry for the day just to feed her man who would toil all day in the sun for her. Looking around the corner of the hut, he sees himself with his wife and daughter, smiling and sharing the little crumbs of dry roti they had; that they could afford to have. Just simple bread and water seemed to suffice when he had his family with him. The expectant arrival of their son was a time for celebration for the family.  

It took no more than just days to realize that life was a gamble for him. The Gods did not favor him then; the Sun lashes out with its fiery whip that rips his world apart – it rips his family apart. A famine hits and it hits year after year and hits hard. No rains, no clouds and no hope of any relief. The son passed of malnutrition after his wife passed during labor. His complete family was now his daughter, the best student in the village school who he couldn’t afford even after selling off the family belongings. Life had just given up on him and he had given up hope. He was a broken man.

A little drop of rain breaks his train of sorrowful thoughts of the past and brings him to the present. Things are brighter now. There is rain, neither too much nor too little; there are clouds that shield the Sun from its whip and there is hope. He has nothing much left to rely on but his crops- his spring babies. That’s all he has to ensure his daughter a better education, a better place to marry her off to – a better life; any life but his life was the better life.  

He runs a finger along the sharp blade of the rusty old sickle. It is still sharp and it’s time to put it into use. The very use he swore never to sell it no matter the cost. It was the last shred of hope he had, and he held on tightly to it. He is glad he did. He can now put it to use and to revive everything he once thought of giving up on. He is glad he proved himself wrong. He can prove life wrong. 

The sickle is old and rusty but it knows its job well. The farmer grabs a handful of paddy and cuts them by the roots as his daughter watches in a distance. Neither of them speaks a word but in their hearts they both know that life can only get better after this. For as long as harvest time comes every year, hope will live on.

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